Saturday, July 24, 2010

Choosing to be happy....and other random news

I came to the realization today that yes I'm going to be 30 in September and no I can't keep it from happening.  So I've decided to be happy about the new upcoming chapter in my life.  I'm choosing to be happy.

Also, hit the Farmer's Market today, had an awesome time today, beautiful weather, they were having a pet adoption and I got to play with two heeler puppies, they were adorable!  So cute!  Had breakfast with Jason at Village Inn and my new shoes came in last night.

Buffalo chicken dip on Monday for potluck, looking forward to it!

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Turning 30 this year and not sure I'm happy about that and other musings....

Turning 30 this September, have a few goals that I wanted to have met by that age. 1) Be at the goal weight I wanted to be at 2) Start a family.

Have I accomplished either of these things? No, I have not. The not being at my goal weight is on me, I did that to myself, I sabotage myself at times, that's my fault no one else's. Starting a family? Well, we're working on that and I can honestly say that's not my fault or hubby's or anyone else's. I wish I could blame someone sometimes. I mean honestly there's only so much I can do and there's only so much hubby can do. Of course it's incredibly frustrating trying each and every month just have it not happen. If I hear one person tell me to relax and stop thinking about it I might end up in jail for assault. Let me explain this to you, when you want to have kids as badly as I do and you do everything you possibly can to do that and every month it fails having someone who either a) has kids or b) doesn't have kids and doesn't want them tell you to "relax and it'll happen" is incredibly irritating to hear. If I could relax and shut my brain off and push it out of my mind don't you think I would? Do you honestly think that I enjoy having it as a constant thought? That I like being disappointed each and every month? That I want nothing more than to just stop worrying and thinking about it and wondering if it will ever happen, yes, I want that, I want to be able to just let it happen, but you know what? It doesn't always work like that. There wouldn't be infertility treatments if were easy for every single person on this planet to just get pregnant whenever they wanted.

The moral of this story, don't tell me to relax when it comes to the kid thing and I won't try to punch you in the face. Got it? Good.

In other news, I'm going to try change up my workout a bit. See if I can't jump start the weight loss thing. I also bought new shoes from you have to check out this site! Great prices and cute shows! Finally saw A Perfect Getaway, really good movie :) Recommend seeing it.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Hubby's Birthday Gift is this! He picked it out

And I pre-ordered it, but here it is Star Craft 2

He's quite excited about it, seeing as how I've never played he'll have to be the judge on this one lol!